I dunno why you’re so cold towards me.. I’m not trying to be a wuss.. but right now, I’m really sad..
maybe something happened.. but I may be wrong.. the night I was heading towards my formal, I was in the taxi and talking with my 2 good friends.. we were talking about how that night was to celebrate us for graduating from high school, and, as all guys would, about girls.. at that moment I could only think of you, I really wanted to talk to you, we haven’t seen each other in a while and I really missed you.. and therefore I messaged you..
you seemed somewhat happy that I wanted to talk to you, and for the whole night, I could only think of you… how much I’d wished you were there celebrating with me.. because you were the highlight of my year 12..
too bad I got home quite late, and I was also pretty tired.. so I told you wait for tomorrow to talk.. at first I thought you were asleep, maybe you were, but somehow I reckon you got my message and deactivated your Facebook as well.. everything after that just got worse.. your attitude somewhat didn’t sound too happy, and also asked me why I wanted to talk to you.. well.. should I really have a reason I wanted to talk to you? honestly, that night, I was planning to tell you how much I loved you..
day after day, I seem to miss you more and more, it really made me upset.. I kept trying to start a convo with you, but you shut it down quite quickly..
Tuesday was the day I couldn’t stand it anymore, I missed you so much the only thing on my mind while I tried to study was you, I couldn’t concentrate and was dying to talk with you.. but.. you gave me the most horrible replies I could have gotten.. i got really angry and at the same sad..
I don’t think anything has ever forced me this much, I deactivated my Facebook and threw away my computer, turned off my phone and went a bit rampage..
honestly, I never deactivate my Facebook unless I’m somewhat disappointed in you.. I can’t tell you this because I just sound like an ass.. but sometimes what angers me most is that cold attitude of yours.. I understand how important studying is to you.. but.. but.. I guess it’s different for me then.. nothing’s more important than the person you’re in love with.. you’re most important to me, and at times like this, when my exams are just around the corner, don’t leave me there lonely.. talk to me, encourage me.. I think that’s what I want from you, not those two word replies..
right now it’s so cold I can cry..